What's in a Name

After a month of being lazy about it, I finally got around to having my domain name point here. So, if you've been accessing the site via lynnftw.squarespace.com, you can now change your bookmarks and RSS feed links to lotsofnothingness.com. That is, of course, purely optional though. Both links work just fine. Here's to slowly getting things done around here!

'Less' Being the Operative Word

This morning I ran to Walmart to pick up a few things, and that almost always makes me hostile. I hate Walmart with a passion, but the closest grocery store is a total dump. The next closest grocery store is Walmart, or if I go the other direction, another Walmart. They are roughly both the same distance, but going to the one West of here, the speed limit is 45mph almost the whole way, and you're pretty much guaranteed to pass at least two cops. Heading to the one South of here, it's 55mph the whole way, and on the rare occasion that you do pass a cop, it's almost always from one of the neighboring towns and out of its jurisdiction. Obviously, I go to the Walmart that's South of here.

Aside from just being plane evil, part of the reason I hate going to Walmart is the customers. They all suck. All of them. I seriously can't shop at Walmart without having to restrain myself from the urge to kick people in their shins and punch them in their necks. Today however, I made it through the store and picked up everything I needed without any major irritations aside from the fact that my shopping cart refused to go any direction other than left. It was actually a pleasant shopping trip, and I may have even had a smile on my face for most of the time I was there. That all changed when I got to the registers, though.

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Lonely, I'm so Lonely

Look at me. I'm writing. Yup. Or, at least I'm trying to. This is all about just writing to write, not thinking about what I'm writing about, just writing what's on my mind. Gotta get past the block and back in the habit somehow because I really do miss writing.

So what's on my mind? I miss face to face interaction with people! Back in Virginia, after Adam left for Japan, I still had friends and neighbors that I saw on a regular basis. Even while walking the dog, I'd usually run into someone I knew and would end up having a nice conversation for at least a few minutes. Then when I moved back here to South Carolina, I was living with my parents from mid-February to mid-May, so I always had someone around. Sure, at the time it drove me crazy to never have any real alone time, since both my parents are retired and always home, but now that I am in the new house, I am so lonely! I really don't have any friends here, and my parents are now about an hour away from me. I haven't really even met any of my neighbors yet either. I go days at a time completely alone without any interaction with any other humans other than on the internet and occasional phone calls with friends. Sure, I do get out of the house, but a thirty second exchange with store employees while running errands doesn't exactly count. I have always loved and looked forward to my alone time, but after nearly two months of being completely alone for days and often weeks at a time, I am sick of it. The animals hardly count as company anymore. During the day it's not so bad, but the evenings are the hardest because I was so used to being alone during the day until Adam came home from work. I can't wait until he is home (in 38 days, hopefully) because I miss his company and companionship more than anything in the world right now! I think I'm finally beginning to master the art of patience from all of this; that's for sure. 

Well, that's all for now. I feel like I could actually write more, which is really encouraging, but I think I should probably save that for tomorrow. I don't want to push it. Writer's block, I will defeat you!

My Train of Thought Needs Some Fuel

Yes, I am aware that it has been almost one month since I brought my blog back, and I haven't written anything. I've realized that writing just doesn't come naturally to me anymore, and something needs to be done about that. I need to just start writing every day about whatever comes to mind just to get in the habit again, so for a while my entries will probably be boring and weird. My stream of consciousness is never very coherent; I am without a doubt a rambler. Anyone that has ever spoken with me on the phone knows that fact all too well. To give you an idea of what I mean, here's a quote from a year old blog entry where I was trying to explain what it's like to be in my head.

Using the 'train of thought' analogy, it goes a little something like this: train A leaves station 12 at 4:21 p.m. heading South for station 97 at 45 mph; train B leaves station 33.333333 at 23:16 heading North for station Q at 1,000,000,000,000 mph, and train Your Mom's a Whore leaves station 666 at no real time at all heading West with a broken compass toward station 94.3 JAMZ going slower than a stoner figuring out this math problem. Somewhere in the middle they all crash. Still on board? Okay then.

Right now, this is just a declaration of my intentions. Will I actually start writing again? I guess we'll find out tomorrow.

And We're Back

After a nearly nine month long hiatus, I've finally brought my site back!

A couple days ago, I discovered Squarespace and was completely blown away. It's so easy to use, yet I don't feel limited in any way by its capabilities. I signed up for the two week trial, just to play around, but in less than a day I had a website in front of me ready to go as soon as I filled in the content. How could I not bring back my blog?!

Until only a couple hours ago, I was planning to complete the other pages before going live, such as the photo gallery and about section, but then I had to rant about something. Before I knew it, I had written my first complete blog entry in months. Now I just don't want to wait any longer, so here it is! Lots of Nothingness is back!

Over the next few days, I plan to finish everything up, and I may possibly be bringing some older entries over from my old blog. Pretty soon my domain name will be pointing here, too. I'm actually really excited. Yay for inspiration!